Hello lovely,
I hope you’re well. It’s been a while. I’ve spent a lot of time doing some self-reflection and looking after myself recently. I’ve come to realise that the way that I address my thought processes and reactions surrounding day to day things can change my mood and outlook completely.
So, I’ve been actively trying to reflect on my emotions and thought processes, trying to make more sense of them to benefit my own mental health. During these reflections I’ve realised that I’ve had an extremely negative outlook on a lot of day to day situations and I wasn’t taking any notice of what my thought process was to get me to that point, so nothing was changing and I was just being a miserable sod.
I also found that a lot of my negativity, I was picking up from others. As I’m generally quite an emotional person in that I feel all of my emotions very strongly, I often find myself absorbing the emotion of others. If someone was feeling low or angry, I would often pick up on those feelings and leave the conversation leaving more down or frustrated than I had been prior to speaking with them, but have no idea why. This is often known as ‘transference’ and can be quite a common thing to experience. Since recognising this, I’ve been much more able to detach my feelings from other peoples and alter my mindset.
Now, when I say that I’ve been reflecting, I haven’t necessarily been sitting and writing down my feelings and thought processes, though I know that sometimes if I’m very perplexed with my thoughts and feelings I might need to write it down to physically see it in front of me. However, I will instead try to acknowledge my feelings as and when I feel them and will think about what led me to that point. This can often mean that I need to remove myself from a situation where I am around others and just take 5 minutes to myself. This can be somewhere outside that’s quiet and peaceful, or a place inside where I know that I won’t be disturbed.
Usually, I can tell that my emotions will be a response to an interaction or something that might have been going on around me. So, my first move is trying to identify what that things might be. For example, has something just happened that’s caused a change in my emotions? If not, is something going on right now generally that might be causing me to feel this way?
I’d like to clarify that I am by no means saying that I will reflect and be absolutely fine again, because the majority of the time that’s not the case. I do actually need to allow myself the time to experience the feeling because otherwise, I wouldn’t be human. This is usually the point where I would ask myself the following questions:
•Is there anything that I can change to help myself to feel more positive?
•Is the thing causing me to feel this way something that is within my control to change?
And a question that I’m forever asking myself if when I worry about other people’s opinions of me, which has previously been a huge anxiety for me, is ‘so what?’. This question can be quite a harsh one to ask myself, but can often be the one that brings me back to reality.
If the answer to both of the first two questions is no, then it’s time to acknowledge that feeling and let it be. I’ll try to think of something I can do to make me feel at least more comfortable, even if I am still feeling emotional. I’ve recently put together my own ‘Mental Health Go To box’ for when I’m struggling. It was something that I saw on Pinterest and thought would be really helpful for me. I’m planning to post the contents of my mental health box in a future post, but this can generally include anything that can help you specifically to feel even a little bit better when you’re feeling anxious or down. I would definitely recommend it.
My self-reflection is definitely going to be a process that I think will be changeable for me for a long while. But what I want to make sure that I’m always doing is taking time for me to reflect on my emotions because this has made the biggest difference to my mood and I couldn’t be happier with the recent shift in my mental health.
I hope you have a lovely week ahead. I’ll see you soon.